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Nancy Santos's avatar

“I scour that perfect synonym”

You did a fine job. I had to look up nictate. The fuck? I don’t think I’ve ever heard that word.

Now I’m just imagining you practicing polite screams. 🤣

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Debdutta Pal's avatar

Thank you! I found it in a fantasy novel and got obsessed with it. Should have added it in the Author's Notes along with the other rambling.

It's a part of my morning routine. 😆

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Robert Gowty's avatar

I had to look up nictate, too!

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Patrick Eades's avatar

I could never meditate either. I like the idea of writing as meditation. Does eating ice cream while watching Love is blind count too? 🤣

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Debdutta Pal's avatar

100%. Whatever helps. 😁

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Marcia Abboud's avatar

"I felt like an android" Gold, Deb! Your certainly found your poetry 🖤

Side note: If one more person tells me I need to meditate to become whole, or whatever, I will slap them ;) It's fucking hard!

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Debdutta Pal's avatar

Haha, non-fiction is better than comedy sometimes. Most times.

Re side note: Same. I'd rather be laughing.

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Marcia Abboud's avatar

🙋‍♀️😆

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Elena's avatar

Omg this!! Poetry also makes me be more present. When it’s just my journal and me, in the garden, in my room, on the bus, wherever!

Amazing poem!

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Debdutta Pal's avatar

So glad to know it works for you too! Cheers to poetry. 🥂

Thank you so much!!

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Jenny Blue's avatar

I too haven’t found a polite way to scream. Beautifully thoughtful 🖤

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Debdutta Pal's avatar

Maybe the the universe is sending us a message. 😁

Thank you! 🖤

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Jenny Blue's avatar

Probably ;)

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Nevena Pascaleva's avatar

I love your style, Debdutta, and you know what- I think I need it, too, the way I feel lately- so fragmented and unable to collect myself….

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Debdutta Pal's avatar

Thank you! I hear you. Poetry is fun, my sentences can be incomplete. 😁

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H. R. Sinclair's avatar

"never found a polite way to scream" I love this line. I wish I could find a polite way to scream.

Beautifully authentic, Debdutta, as always.

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Debdutta Pal's avatar

Thank you! Maybe we shouldn't? 😁

So glad you liked it. 🥹

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Kay Flanagan's avatar

I’m going to look up nictate too. I wish I could write poetry as good as this.

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Debdutta Pal's avatar

I'm sure you can. Thank you so much!! 🥹

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Kay Flanagan's avatar

I don’t think so.

I wasn’t able to meditate either and thought it was a personal failure until I discovered I have no visual memory or third eye and have to put words on things to remember them visually. I can meditate now but never use visualisations.

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Jill Eng's avatar

Love it. Gobs of good stuff... inside your oh-so sophisticated poetry 😎.

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Debdutta Pal's avatar

Thank you! That means a lot coming from you. 🥹

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Robert Gowty's avatar

I think the Author’s Note qualifies as a polite scream 😱 against the peddlers on geniunositiness. And you’re right, don’t let them! This feels like a draft formulation of resistance.

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Debdutta Pal's avatar

Oh, yeah, I see it now.

Viva La Resistance. I know you're already on my side. 🖤

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E.R. Davis's avatar

Sunscreen clad legion of shadows. Might be the best line I've read in a while, excellent work

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Debdutta Pal's avatar

That's the first line I wrote, so glad you liked it. 🖤

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Black Coffee Creative's avatar

Poetry really changed you that much?! It's such a personal form of writing, what even is "poetry"?

This piece is SOC-esque, it's got a quick, rapid-fire element to it. Totally in love with it!! ^_^

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Debdutta Pal's avatar

In this area, yes. Good question, I guess it's just a feeling.

Oh yeah, my re-reads during editing were very quick, I was confused, lol.

Thank you, so glad you liked it. 🖤

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